Mr. Wellmess

You know sometimes in the insane and not so insane world that I; not saying we because I’m not going to assume everyone can relate we just have to take care of ourselves.

I’ve stated before that I’m bi-polar and I care and that’s all that matters. It’s true but I had a manic attack that seemed uncontrollable and a little sick and I couldn’t figure out why? And because I keep myself mostly straight nowadays I realized I had a damn teeth infection. So I went and got an antibiotic and I’m going to be OK.  I’ll get new teeth, feel better about myself and never have to worry again.

I’m just saying that whatever insanity a creative goes through and what ever tools to help you control insanity never forget to take care of yourself and get help when you need it. I’m sure many people in my life feel like I just run them over and because of that they may not care about little O me but I do.

I can’t make anybody care about themselves either, they have to. And enough about the heavy.

And out the door I went yesterday. Yesterday was an awesome failed success. I was thinking way to small while I can’t divulge details I was meant to not have success on a smaller level for a reason. It kind of makes me come back to the story about a tree and looking from the same perspective from a different height. In a way I took my idea to an apex of height.

Well that’s what I did.

Today is the day. This is my final attempt to get the last bit of information I think and hope I need for a movie as far as research goes.

I may get the opportunity to “pitch” it or maybe an elevator “pitch” so to speak. Honestly I’m a little bit nervous. I’m also confident and believe in my project though.

“Pitching” is somewhat like acting to me because it takes an embodiment of primary business self, creative self and me just being me. I have to be cheerful yet serious.

I guess that’s the key to any project cheerful and serious. The people I hope want to get on board with my project seem to run their franchise as such. Overview perspective is my perspective as I’m still somewhat of an outsider looking in.

As I’m writing this I realize I also have to prepare my other materials for the same demographic. Maybe I shouldn’t worry so much about that though.

I’ve never really made a “pitch” diagram “pitching” before but as part of my “pitch” and giving a larger picture to my overall vision I have to sell much more than a movie idea in order for this project to work. Merchandise and marketability are key factors in this vision. Its also important getting a studio on board with it. Maybe its not as tough as a sell as I think it is demographic wise when it comes to “pitching” it to Hollywood. Maybe I’m making more out of the demographic problem than I should. I hope. This is a big stage folks.

I’m closing my eyes, I’m breathing and I’m always dreaming. I’m meant to do this in my life. I always have.

I’ve very rarely in my life have asked people to wish me luck but if anybody out there is reading this today at least think of little O me and my plight for the big stage. I would you. And maybe even throw you a complex problem a few times along the way because as screenwriters go with all our beauty we have to be prepared to resolve tough problems with our projects. I’ve had my share. I can and I will do this. TODAY.

I have wrote a nifty theme song lyric too with an artist in mind for it.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

Yesterday I over thought I think. Perhaps I was just thinking of the jazzy nature of science fiction dialogue at times. Enough of that… well, for this idea.

Below is what I thought would be fun. And it’s not that hard.

Trying to be creative, imagining and such thinking outside the box just causes over thinking sometimes which can lead to under thought interpretation from audience. It’s also good to give it that next day overlook trying to make the concept practical. While this idea is probably not original in some facets I still think its important. While much different from being screen wrote it might give some up and coming a view into why their screenplays aren’t good either. I could screen write it in reduction form within 10 minutes or so but like I said I’m just going to tell stories.

In real-time about 7 p.m. on Saturday.

Bad Story!

I went outside and stood atop a place where a tree had been cut down and then thought how does a tree think?

A man replied and….?

Oh nothing I just thought. The man gave me a disgusted look, shook his head and went inside.

The end. This is a horrible story.

In real-time about 7 p.m. on Saturday.

This is a Good Story!

Life was weighing heavy on me, I was really going stir crazy about to lose my mind. I’d recently been out to eat and something was settling none to well with me.

I was talking to myself wondering how I was going to pull off an idea for Bad Story Sunday. Perhaps I was letting it weigh on me too much. Perhaps I just needed to get out of the house and take a walk.

So I did. I got myself up out of bed, went out the door to bright sunshine, walked downstairs and took a walk around the area I was.

About two-thirds of the way into my walk which was becoming pressing going up a low-grade hill I seen an old tree stump nearly flush with the ground as carpenters or builders of things use the terminology.

There was a somewhat busy highway none to far from the place I seen and was compelled to go stand upon. I followed my compulsion, stood where I was compelled to do so and imagined as I looked into the forest across the highway where I was.

A man who at one time thought I was crazy had followed me. He asked me what I was doing? I simply replied trying to think like a tree. He replied and…?

Well if I were a tree I guess I would feel free and have a sense of purpose. The man replied how so?

Because I would get to watch the world go by from a never-changing perspective through time except for the perspective of height. I would have sense of purpose protecting those near me from mother nature unless she chose to strike me dead. I would probably hear and experience every emotion through time although I’m not sure as a tree how that would feel.

I think on a day in full bloom perhaps my leaves would feel like a million dancing hands. How exhilarating that would be or perhaps the crack of thunder, storms brewing would feel exhilirating as I’m in need of a shower and a drink.

I probably wouldn’t mind those of adolescence to climb and sit on one of my many shoulders. I could nestle them in keep them safe and maybe they could see life from my perspective for a moment.

The man just looked at me as though I were a tree and walked inside. I never felt more validated in my life. I also knew there would never be an end to my creative being in a practical sense.

That is the beauty of a screenwriter my friends.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

Have you ever thought back to the days when and where it all started in your screenwriter career?

You know sometimes telling bad stories gets hard. I imagine it like Alfalfa’s intentionally bad singing in the little rascals.

I’m not even sure I can do it.

It used to scare me to intentionally try when I was developing because I thought I’d have a reversal of direction.

You know telling a story such as you know that time what happened when sorta thing.

These aren’t skills like some Yoda Jedi dialogue. In fact I don’t think theses are skills at all. The Yoda Jedi dialogue is but that’s not what I’m trying to achieve.

Enough of the anti-climatic set-up causing disinterest in a multitude of ways.

God this gonna be bad trying to write a bad story; or is it?

I wonder what audiences would come away with a story was intentionally done in bad timing like bad jazz, wonder if it would leave audiences with a jazzy feel? Funny how drama drives comedy and comedy drives drama. I just wonder. Oops. Sorry I got sidetracked there in a parallel universe. Crap. Can I tell a bad story? It would have be done in real-time editing left that way too. Oh don’t go a causing some mind warp thing. Can you quit thinking out loud…and laugh.  Be normal.

This is very difficult and no its not a schitzo type thing and that’s actually a good story. I’m telling you its going to be hard to write a bad story. Seriously. I’d love to even see veterans try. I’ll solidify the vision for it tomorrow I hope. It might be fun and good exercise even for bored veterans. I sure hope I didn’t just become part of the plague causing screenwriter insanity. LOL!

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

You know I could build this site annexing all kinds of writer’s resources and blogs to be “The Almighty Powerful Screenwriter Resource” (sarcasm) but why?

Screenwriter’s know what they need to do. They know most resources available. They know their craft to be worth a damn takes constant learning and dedication.

I’m just going to tell stories mostly truthful with a little sensationalism. I’m really beginning to believe that the tools and comprehensive resources become dull and uninteresting at times, not that they are not a necessity but after nearing ten years of doing this stuff its a lot of second nature crap. I think it is probably good to give other screenwriter blogs shout outs once in a while but even that becomes mundane at times.

What never disinterest me however is stories. Life is about stories real and fiction at face value up to and including sensationalism. Think about silly stories you and your friends told growing up and as you get to my age the arguments of how it happened.

I’ve seen a lot of people in Hollywood and in streaming services talk about how the want themselves represented on the screen.

Here’s a harsh reality I believe and I hope it doesn’t offend anyone. I don’t think people want exactly accurate representations of themselves (Biographies and documentary are an exception) I think what drives audience is wanting a reflection of themselves represented with sensationalism most the time or focus on impactful life events making them who they are but this is only with audience and people that want that representation. I don’t think everybody does. Myself, I’m the type of guy who would rather watch the non-realistic, something funny timed for sensationalism, or a world of complete fantasy. I’ve explored other genres of writing, wrote a drama or two and come up with idea’s for such all the time but as much as I’ve tried and put effort into it, it just isn’t me.

I’m a light-hearted guy. I can’t change that nature of me. And believe me there is totally enough personal drama in comedy. Being evil can be fun but I never really see it as dramatic I guess because I kinda know how to make it. I’m telling you a secret in a way and in a way I think a lot of people of the industry know drama drives comedy as much as comedy drives the dark, forboding drama even when the result is strictly drama or strictly comedy. That’s why screenwriter’s are walking conundrums.

So from here on out I’m just going to tell stories. If this blog makes to a list of screenwriter’s blogs someday great. If it doesn’t oh well.

I can pretty much assure you that I’m not same o same o with stories and their are enough damn comprehensive resources anyone can find.

What is odd at times is how reflective my voice seems to be in current industry happenings through my dumb, silly and maybe sometimes good stories.

Tomorrow I’m going to try to tell a bad story. Maybe bad story Sunday would be an interesting weekly thing. IDK.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

Last night was the first night I just came out and said I need help.

It’s true. I do need help.

Here is why I’m also on the fence working or creating jobs. Let’s say I chose to create them.

My demeanor, personality and persona would have to maintain a highly professional embodiment. That’s fine for the outer facade of what media creation is but honestly I love the fun factor and what I call divinity feeling youthful. I feel natural that way. I like open parameter behind the scenes creation. Sure we have to keep our creative selves in check too and not get entirely carried away but let’s say I create a company and put such company under an umbrella of a larger existing company; can I just let other people run that facade, go down so to speak every once in a while with one of my creations or several different ones a day and function within the company I built that way?

Perhaps if the boss can do what he wants maybe the boss will never lose his divinity.

This is where I think I think like Walt Disney a wee bit. Perhaps that’s why he started the Imagineers.

I know what I want. I feel and see my vision knowing currently I need help. Honestly I’m broke other than fairly small stable personal income and I need financial start-up help and people that believe in such vision in a light-hearted professional manner. Maybe that’s it. I’m a light-hearted guy and no matter how heavy my heart temporarily or because of others becomes its my true nature to be light-hearted.

You know I respect and admire people of divinity. My company needs divinity and I think it will help maintain ethos not only from the facade but with behind the scenes ethos to

Here’s another thing; if I’m under a larger umbrella maybe I can go play in other companies too only from a creative standpoint though.

Cartoons are not the only facet of creation this works in.

I’m starting to see the conundrum of wanting to work a job and creating them come into the light I need.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

It was a mostly good day and I coped but it has drained much of my brain power, Chi’ energy or whatever. So I need to get some sleep and recharge my batteries. I know it would be fine to say or do nothing at all today but it’s just commitment to myself. I think I know where I’m taking the blog now. Sometimes I wonder why I had to make two social media blogs. I wanted to put it all in one but what I’ve built is so massive I can’t. I need help now. You know that’s the first time I’ve said I need help versus I’m going to need help or need help soon.

I’m on the fence about working jobs or trying to create them. Such is the messy creative organized structure of my life.

Maybe I’ll organize my work with tiered access need or want levels.

Too much thinking. Good Night.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

No wonder this story is in knots.

Have you ever just been cruising along and all of sudden a fearful reality pops up making you feel as though you have been or you’ll be discovered a fraud.

Fortunately for me it was an old reality and a mistake I made letting someone or at times someones stop me. My nature wanted to chalk it up as a good thing, find something I could use about it and never revisit that feeling again.

I can use recognizing that as such and know when to leave an environment because of recognition and projecting the conduciveness or usefulness of an environment but maturity would have taught me that on its own.

We are all frauds in some way but that’s in a totally different context.

I’m to the point in my life that I just figure non believers end up their own deceivers with me. They don’t drive me in any way anymore. I have nothing left to prove to them and don’t have to convince myself. Perhaps not acknowledging such people in my life is OK at my age.

Are they a part of what made me who I am today? Not really because in the aftermath I was the only one who could drive me where I need me to be. (Family is an exception. Usually.)

I’m not going to bash such people from my past but their credit in any way really should be zero but yet those are the people who say…

“Oh; he is for real. We better jump on that bandwagon.”

It has taken me much time to grow and get better. In total reality I simply can’t care about anyone from my past that had no good intentions for me and used me because of their own guilt or shortcomings.

I forgive them without need because that’s who I am. I’m not unforgiving but they are also not a healthy caring about from me anymore.

I’m going home soon for what I hope is the last time in a long time. I’m scared a little even at my age because I know I’m not well there but currently I’m not well where I am either. I’m well without either environment. Seriously.

I’m not in some denial thinking some environment will change who I am. I’m a stable, somewhat crazy screenwriter/lyric minded multiple creative person now but I instinctively know an environment or me is not well when I’ve outgrown that environment.  Luckily I still have my happy place environment but I really think I’m to the point in my life where I need to just start my life over.

I’m a very difficult and moody person to deal with personally at times, normal creatively and probably still sub par business minded but I’ll get there. I wouldn’t mind studio life for a while maybe finding the love of my life somewhere that’s finally my match and can relate to my world as much as I can hers. (Familiar with multiple creative type guys and not necessarily associated directly with a studio.)

I live in the reality of what it takes to create fantasy worlds and maybe I am to the point I can only have a healthy relationship with those types of people for a while. Maybe I’m just a little hungrier than I thought for such a life. The culmination of me and my development are to the point I need to utilize and follow my sense of where I truly belong.

I’ve evolved and cannot expect some people to always understand that.

One another important thing to note is that perhaps people have felt the same about me at points in their life. I don’t need to suffer and sacrifice. I’ve paid my dues and tried to make myself the best man who I can be. Hopefully sometime soon I will find that woman that helps me want to maintain being a better man, not dummy me down unless I truly need it, don’t try to break me, don’t always try to fix me and just love me as much as I love her. Is that too much to want and ask at this point in my life?

Yet in a fantasy world and reality of a writer’s room every one of those aforementioned make beautiful relatable sitcom.

As I’ve said before fame and/or fortune, whatever degree of success is just to create more beautiful media that audiences want to consume and feel satisfied about.

I guess I’m just trying to pull myself out of  thinking back, living in a past that in ways was more traumatic than I thought. Perhaps I’m making something out of nothing and the person or persons I have in mind really don’t wish bad karma upon me but maybe they do? Maybe they can read this and listen to my voice this way because they won’t listen to or really get an opportunity to hear a spoken word of what and who I am evolved. I can accept me now and if they can’t well.. that’s on them.

That’s reality my friends. Like it or not. Like me or not. I sure will be glad when this first month foundation/getting to know me blog is over. I’m a complex person but pretty damn normal in the media industry and sometimes I just don’t want to tell my story.

I need and want with every fiber of my being to be in the reality of creation of fantasy worlds.

I guess what I’m trying to say is… I’m for sale. LOL

Never thought I’d just come right out saying that but yeah I’m for sale and need a job. I won’t disappoint you but I might frustrate the hell out of you in such an inspirational and beautiful way.

Oh and another aspect is I might think somewhat like Walt Disney himself just a wee bit. After all he is my hero. I admire my dad but Walt Disney is my hero.

In reality I’m just little o me from little o small town rural America who just wants to work in the varied media world (No specific company) I watched work in print, on radio, screen, television and now streaming growing up but most importantly in my imagination everywhere I’ve been for a very long time now.  Now I can create and help create.

Sure spec.’s are available but at this point in my life I need submersed in a television writer’s room. I’d feel comfortable  there unless theme for the day would be whatever show uncomfortabilities and their affordabilities. I can do a list of created works but showing skill set on these two blogs mostly in real-time should be close to sufficient.

I’m for hire in a television writer’s room.

Oh and no I didn’t forget my priorities of getting this demographic specific movie written. Its just that I can do that anywhere in my spare time. I nearly have all the pieces I need to put it together. I’d have to go out there anyway and somehow convince a studio the demographic movie concept is worth it and I hate to say it… Realistically it can be a tough “pitch” because the demographic morale and pride let’s just say has become deflated in recent years. It’s getting harder for them to drive the facade. That’s not just my perspective either. I never would have thought Hollywood could actually fix deflated pride but in their reality and Hollywood’s reality it really could.

It’s not like somebody is going to come to my door with a Limo downstairs tomorrow and say come on you have an appointment in L.A. for whatever studio or writer’s room Friday 10 a.m. Here’s your shot. They need materials and your tone.

What else you got. This.

What else you got. This.

What else you got. This.

You get the just and they are pretty good. I’ve read lots of different stuff just like it that’s successful. Honestly not too many unsuccessful ones though.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

So I looked at yesterday’s post. In a way it looked like a copy and paste stream of consciousness. I assure it was not.

Perhaps what was more weird about it was how reflective it was to Variety, THR, Deadline, TVline and a few other sources I read daily.

The funny or odd thing was I didn’t read them before my blog yesterday. Also my problem was just a frustration with a local gas station and a personal phone service.

Maybe its a good thing I’m thinking along the same lines in some respects/aspects.

I don’t really think there is such a thing as tapping into the streaming reality, relevant events, and consciousness of Hollywood but maybe if we just pay a little attention adding reading what’s going on to our daily regimen we may see or tap into the pulse somehow. You know; using it automatically. I follow some veteran screenwriters and I stated once I have a fear of forgetting everything I learned. They told not to worry and that I’d use my skills automatically eventually. Maybe they are right.

Another encouraging aspect is we can only do this with our own perspective no matter how much we try to think like anybody in the industry we admire, want to be like and sometimes those we don’t or want to avoid. Maybe that’s the difference of dedication and want to be versus being. I honestly don’t know and am not going to let it weigh on me with any heavy bearing. I”m just going to keep doing what I’m doing, blog what I blog, close my eyes once in a while so I can see and just imagine looking at the industry as a whole from the lowliest (term lowliest really doesn’t exist with people working in the industry “craft, capacity wise” but I have to call it something) to perhaps the most powerful.

It could just be that sometimes Hollywood needs as much encouragement as I do talking their way out of doing stoopid things.

Maybe this is that silly ethos thing starting to come to the forefront I mentioned a week or so back. Heck if I know. I’m just little o me doing my little o function. So ethos might be here let’s just use that automatically too.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”