Mr. Wellmess

You know sometimes I live in such a fantasy world in reality that I get such big idea’s like how write trilogies, design theme parks, paralleling launching, thinking years in advance that I forget the small stuff.

I truly do what I think is Imagineer type thinking but I forget how to do the small stuff and come down to practical thinking. Women are great for this. Well most after in they are in their thirties or better anyway.

I used to think this was an illness in a way and perhaps there is some truth to that. Is creating crap all the time an illness. I’m not talking about social media so much as that is easy to break away from. What I am talking about creating idea’s from nothing to immersion experiences.

I work my ass off in so many different ways other than the practical. It’s partially due to physical limitations that probably are not all that severe if I try but realistically they do exist and on top of that I have bi-polar.

Sometimes I also feel demographically speaking I cannot get my proper medication. I honestly don’t care about money when I have the basics that I need and a few wants but when all that runs out from my small personal monthly income because I try to improve situations and environment to much I sure get depressed.

I wrote a movie based on such theme (With many other layered themes) once because while all is not well on a personal level on a creative level nothing can stop a man like me.

I’ve heard people say before you are the only one stopping you and this may indeed be true but damn it; is the practical world necessary at some point. I kind of hope not and this doesn’t make me lose touch with reality either.

There is probably some beautiful dialogue here if I really thought about and I don’t think this blog today is too personal either. I can think just about like anyone. I can write my ass off and I could probably have a polished episode of nearly any show I chose within 3-4 weeks. Probably 3 with the right collaborator’s and inspirational type people just like myself.

I feel destined to screw up sometimes because of lack of a truly helpful support team. I belong locked into a damn studio somewhere to work on a never ending multiverse of projects.

Here’s another thing and I don’t have to prove it but I truly can think like a Walt Disney. My life and culmination of experiences somewhat parallel’s his only in a longer time frame of life on a personal level. But here’s the thing anyone who has been successful you can parallel aspects of life with truly.

I’ve always been the introvert kid picked on standing outside the circle watching life as an observer but nowadays I have evolved to also be a social butterfly in a sense.

In healthcare I used to be the happy go lucky make you laugh, make you smile in shitty situations type guy and those are the people I always need around me now.

I’ve been an ass, I’ve been arrogant, I’ve been humble, I’ve been apologetic, I have been on the extreme side of right and wrong, I’ve been fallible and because of my dedication I’ve also been near infallible almost as perfect as one can be. I’m not an actor but damn with my life experience sometimes I sure wonder why I’m not. Perhaps it is just my fortunate or unfortunate being born with a lack a vanity or destroying any healthy vanity I did have with crappy decisions in my youth.

All experiences make us who we are. I’m a mostly good person that should stand up for myself in life more and create more opportunity for myself. (Even practical opportunity for myself as I cringe) but I also can’t lose sight of what I’m truly meant to do and be.

Serious practical life periodic struggles suck. 

Funny how all that rambling comes to one impactful line of dialogue.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

Today is a strange day simply because I’m desperate but don’t care.

Sometimes I live my life forwards and backwards it feels. Money is such a strange thing in a way.

While money is freedom veering towards such reality of things such as “real job”  can be detrimental for a writer. Perhaps the struggles of commitment and sacrifice for such commitment pay off.

If only I could be as dedicated to relationships as I am to my career I’d have it made. Realistically I can’t though. The reason why is simply because of time management.

To me it is worth it and it’s going to be hard pressed to find a woman who can or wants to put up with that.

Today needs to a catalogue day and it’s not that I’m lazy. Here’s two old spec.’s from cancelled television.

I’ve gotten much better since these two. They were decent though.

MarryMeSpec4

GMWspec.2

Peace to you all. Simply because our creative minds need it sometimes.

While I can’t publish publicly details about what I’m working on. Its about integral stresses and limitations for my vision of what I think a company can and cannot represent.

I’m molding myself for something and in doing so I decided to use something I explored a few years back as an example of limitations and stress.

Also I’m fresh. So when one works on such complex problems to me it is important to do so at the freshest part of the day and personally I have to be as straight as I can be to do it.

This is highly complex and difficult. It requires as much walking on eggshells so to speak as being as bold, brash or as sick as what I think is acceptable with my vision.

It would be interesting to read several and see what their interpretation and resolve is. Some are fine with everything and that is OK too but I’m just going to say with my vision it is not.

Diplomacy is a bitch!

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

This is my first blog trying to use a phone. Yeah it works. Now don’t none of those of younger generation laugh and don’t those of older generation say wow I didn’t know you could do that.

You know one aspect of the screenwriting world is well-written flops.

I used to wonder why people would read bad screenplays on purpose then something occurred to me that is definitely not new.

Every once in a while its good to see bad rated movies because after paying attention for a while you can see the difference between good story and bad execution on the part of  whoever did the movie.

I’m not going to call out the most recent one but it really has me wondering if it was due to expected gain on another movie and then a calculated loss on the one I saw.

Perhaps its the business world of movies. I don’t know but you would think acquiring  reinvestment revenue would make them want to have high success in everything they do. Seems odd to me as though someone was intentionally asleep at the wheel.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”

I took a couple of days away from blogging.

I’ve noticed something important to note about social media, business, myself.

In a way my track of time was almost thrown off.

You know whatever your world is in the noisy world of media; rather a simple blog or some great business design or perhaps just staying to your simple vision in focused or expandable ways it is very important in building that you step back for just a moment. When I realize how much I’ve built within a month sure it seems pretty fantastic but at what cost? Was being in such a hurry a necessity?

I think a lot of it is also building too much self-esteem at times.

Sometimes coming up from nothing; especially with no encouragement, without discouragement or even somewhere in-between requires one to put all their energy into self-esteem and while this is good it can become too much pressure. You know people at times have always said that people are molded to withstand pressure in business,  pressure in doing what it takes and that’s a fine scenario but if you are building it yourself at the start and you know your pressure limitations or just limitations in general I don’t think you can ever expect to make any one else do what you can’t but you can make many disperse your steam pressure of of self-esteem. This pressure also causes an indecision factor that should not require snap decision making. With that said decisions that need to made under pressure situations require more than one person and meetings with people that can take just a little bit of that steam or a whole lot of that steam dispersing it themselves in healthy ways seeing the vision that you have.

Projects can be done individually but it takes much more than you to bring your project to light.

So remember in a wired world or whatever world you are in; where the wired one is integral in most be careful of losing that track of time, when you know your pressure limitations get some help dispersing.

Self-suffering and sacrifice building a company are only part of an admiration quality.  To me if the inter workings of a company doesn’t have admiration qualities from their people they WILL lose admiration for their products.

Hey its worked for others this way and they have admirable products but I sure hope its all right if I don’t chose to be such way as I still like being in touch with my humanity and nature and just life in general.

Of course this is only if I ever made it to the atmosphere of being a company man. LOL!

As science evolves I think technology is becoming more of a scientific organism.

Yeah in a way it sucks and we have to break away sometimes before it consumes us but in reality its controllable and just another tool. That’s all we have to remember I think feel and hope. Its not even addictive if you see it as just a tool.

Social media managers will probably have to take more time off and limit themselves but I think it is a still controllable from the human aspect of being the most complex organic creatures ever created.

Perhaps the universe does revolve around us. I suppose if we were to believe in alien species we are superior because we won’t let technology defeat us. I believe in humanity and the organic nature of life on this Earth. I know we’ll be fine because technology will never have a spirit or soul and that I have always had faith in. Sometimes I think that is what the Zombie protocol is. We wouldn’t be zombies if there were a technological apocolypse but it sure would be funny watching the dazed people without technology. Even if it were for a day. I know; that’s just out there and actually wouldn’t be all that funny.

Just silly thoughts for the day.

I sure wish the damn dentist office would call me back. I’m becoming annoy yed being a consumer of idle time and don’t want to be a little devil.

I really do love writing science fiction stuff sometimes. I just have to let this run its course. See how hard it is for me not to work on big idea’s and just dumb ones of ponderous nonsense.

Eh, maybe my blog is unhealthy for me today. I can wait and don’t have to express every damn thing I think to help me.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing GENUINE help along the way.”

You know everyone wonders what mass appeal popularity is supposed to mean with the new Oscars category.

While I myself don’t actually know I suspect it has something to do with batching. Let’s face it; everything is wired in nowadays. Every click.

As technology and the movie industry; as it is industry goes, I think we have accept parts of the technological evolution impact and if there is a way to know; which google probably does; perhaps that’s the way they come to decision.

Again this is just conjecture. I myself do not really know but perhaps it may actually cause fairness. Technology is science in research and that is what the Academy is. Just another way of looking at it I suppose that is hopefully food for thought.

So today I don’t feel well. I have to take some antibiotics.

While I think of my project in a much bigger way and context now. I was still going to follow through. Only because if I can’t do one project how can I expect to duplicate it.

Now I have the problem of taking care of my health. Perhaps today isn’t the day for pushing myself to where I need to go but because I’m not feeling well doesn’t mean I’m too sick to work. I’m losing that feeling of indecision more and more.

So what I can do is make the people’s work for who I’m going to “pitch” the idea to better. After all; if I were an exec. or the one making decisions or getting the idea to someone else making decisions I would want a guy to bring me a project proposal/business proposal to me where I didn’t have to do much work to get people on board. Persuasion is an odd thing. In the media world sometimes I think decisions are somewhat made on a whim even if it is who you know. They have a lot come across the table everyday. Everybody has the best idea so to speak but if the vision is a no-brainer in black and white perhaps you’ll get the dismissive yeah whatever. On a rare occasion if I do it really well they may even think about a project in a little different or an expandable practical  way or let the idea stick with them. That’s the ideal goal in the capacity I’m working currently.

“I’d like to make the small stuff something that they would think; hey I can remember thinking like that”. Not sure if that’s an original quote.

I’m ready an unafraid but I’m also not feeling well. So I guess I’ll just do something today.

My blog sure can save my mind at times. I never realized how healthy it truly is even if it is just for me. I’m also thinking it may be time for time management and a better sleep schedule. Weird how being sick or not feeling well all of sudden changes the tone to more serious. Maybe I can learn lessons from that too though.

I may blog a few times today. Hopefully if I do its just not more clutter in an noisy world. Something tells me they probably won’t be. I sure hope I don’t get redundant. Redundancy is a nifty exploration too. Maybe later I can explain why its good and bad or why I think it is anyway. That should give you a clue.

Michael Lee Burris

“I will never stop driving a creative revolutionary wheel of desire and determination always needing genuine help along the way.”